Simple things

Good salad - Nandos
ice cream - parline and caramel
Cutie friend - Ab and Bad
funny movie - the green hornet
Hair curled - by Yass
Nails painted - hot pink
sexy outfit - white low cut top, tied at the end, blazer, tight purple pants, grey pumps
Big shades - round Beige rims

I'm not sure if these are simple things to other people, but they did make me smile. Even if it was a faint smile, even if I'm barely moving and still recovering, it's still something. My neighbour saw me going out to meet Ab for lunch and said I looked sexy but I need to give attitude if I look like this, it was funny and very uplifting. I don't usually wear low cut tops in daytime, it was pretty slutty for a lunch date, and I loved it. I bought this shirt for Al but now I'm wearing it for me, with my boobs showing slightly and super tight pants. I need to get back into feeling myself, I already lost about 4kg which I'm not sure how that's even possible. I'm actually 35.8kg now, my body still looks nice, but I don't think it's getting healthy and I don't want to lose my muscle weight. Hopefully with school tomorrow I'd have enough routine to go to the gym with Hus. I had to go to college today to meet with the counselor and my ex's best friend was there, I kinda wished he saw me too, I dunno, get some attention maybe. it's pretty sad that I wish Al could hear this song and I despise how ok he is and how i'm not ok. I think I'm thinking of and comparing my ex's as a withdrawal symptom of a relationship.

After you get used to having lots of attention (even though it was conditional), you need to find a balance in not having that amount of attention from one person.

I should've taken a photo today to remember that I can look nice and still be sad.

New resolution: take more photos with your loved ones, they're the only ones that truly care. remember the good times.