Past 3 weeks were crazy. I spent two weeks with Al and one week on peripheral with my partner so I barely had any moment in bed alone so I can write properly. plus I actually had to study.
To be honest, I haven't been studying that well this semester, I did waste a lot of time at Al's instead of focusing on my lecture note, we've been doing great except for minor set backs. I'll start with my smile list to cheer me up then I'll get to it.
Smile list:
1. Feeling great about my exam, I was very confident and was laughing with my examiners.
2. Shimmy-ing at Far in between stations in the exam, and on our way out.
3. Getting drunk off 2 tequila shots and partying at home.
4. Dancing at the club.
5. The lookAl had on his face when I told him I loved him before our exam start.
I love him.
I'm very worried about him, he got too drunk yesterday and cried so much, I think a part of me died when I saw him crying, I can't handle him crying, I can't believe he was crying, I'd rather he fucks things up with me and be happy, than ever crying again.
I don't remember ever seeing him this drunk or this depressed about anything in my life. I'm trying to stop myself from constantly checking up on him but I'm so damn worried.
I'll start writing daily because there's so much shit that's been happening that I don't know where to start.
Also: my mother stopped talking to me.. great.
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