18/12/13

I had the weirdest dream last night.

this girl was in my room and i wanted to sleep with her. i liked the kissing and the second base action, but when she took off her underwear, i was really disgusted by hair hairy vagina. i'm not sure if it's because of the hair, or the awful smell, or the texture, but i was fingering her because i had to and not because i wanted to. i almost gagged in the dream. maybe that does prove i'm straight lol. or that the only vagina i'll ever like is my own. ugh, just remembering it was repulsive, and how moist it was.

Blukh.

feminism gone wrong.

I should probably start studying.

My Smile list is still empty, i've spent an hour and a half in bed doing nothing.

Edit:

Smile list:

Avocados: one of those things that give me hope in the term "acquired taste" coz i always say that it's another way of saying something tastes bad but you get used to it. Today I've come to the realization that I now like it enough to eat it on it's own.

2 weeks of meetings my boyfriend: I just remembered while studying that when i met my boyfriend 25/05/12 we went out about 7 times in the two weeks, in which we practically lived together in the last few days before i went back home.
1. the club we first met in 2. our awkward date at the bar where i drank water and didn't understand why he was holding my hands 3 Club Sin 4. Club Alchemy (there seems to be a pattern :p) 5. Avicii concert (which may have been the first time i slept over, that or we watched the movie Up on another day with our Bestie) 6. went to a really horrible movie that i can't remember the name of 7. Had lunch where i insisted on paying since he bought me the Avicii ticket.
now that i think of it, that may have been the night that i slept over. even so, that would be 5 outings in a week and a half, if that's even possible. but it just made me smile thinking about it.

There wasn't much going on today, just studying for my exam tomorrow, should've went to the gym, I didn't think i'd enjoy it that much and miss it if i skip a day.

[New goal: don't buy anymore books until you finish the 16 books you have in your room:
currently reading one, reading another to my boyfriend after exams, definitely not reading the self help book, definitely reading the hunger games books. and the rest are up for debate.]

Back to studying.