And then I missed you

Here I am, still Hazed down from last night, what the fuck is up with these cakes? I'm talking to my friend and he's still the same. shit is crazy.

You tell me that I shouldn't be hurt, you tell me that it's ok. but it's not. I'm not ok, and this won't work out, no matter how much I want it to.

My ex and I had the exact same problems with his family, and look where it got us?
how do you not understand how this can be hurtful to me? I really do love you, and if you loved me, you'd see that they need to understand that I am part of your life and it is something they have to accept and contain. My roommate loves whoever I love, and that's what a real friendship is about.

I will not be hidden, I am not a fuck doll, I am a person that deserves respect, especially if the reasons are unjustifiable. I already am a misfit, I don't need another reminder, I feel very degraded, I'm nothing but a fun-time girlfriend in this situation, I won't be included in anything with meaning, and that is not ok. I am not willing to settle anymore, I deserve better, and you do to. so it's best if we go our separate ways if you really want me to continue in this situation.

my roommate was in a similar situation and it did not have a happy ending.

You would not accept it if it's me doing the hating.

If you were mature, you would make it clear that this is a person that you love and they have to accept me in your life.

I will not be hidden.

I really did think that you changed and are willing to fight for my happiness, but here we are, making the same mistakes again, and you don't give a fuck.

here i am in my bed, and all I can is compare, compare how his friends all liked me, that whatever he feels about me, they do. here i am comparing how i did feel like a priority with him even though he ended up fucking me over. and then you tell me that this will not effect the relationship, when it already is.

they are not children, they both should act their age and support you, but you don't care. which makes me wonder how constant i am to you? and now that i think about it, i realise that i am not constant, which is why they don't accept it.

i'm done.