Choke

How do you take a big step with someone, when you don't have the ability to communicate?

Not to debate, not to argue, but to actually speak.

I am intimidated by you, even when you smile. it scares me to think that you would know how I disagree, that you might one day discover that I'm not the person you think I am. I don't have the ability to be honest with you, even if it's stupid, even if it is irrelevant.

Maybe it's all in my head, but I've come to realize that I am diminished in your presence.

A pussy.

I admit it, I really am a pussy. I choke. I cannot stand confrontations, especially when i'm with you.

I don't think there's any other way to explain it, I have managed to hide my true self for the past 22 years, and I'm not woman enough to stand up and just say no. Same way I was too afraid to confront you 10 years ago.

Until someone makes me snap, I don't feel the need to confront. I don't like arguing, it makes me nauseous and sweaty.

Why won't you just make me snap, so I could get this over with?

Stop being a pussy, already.